4th of July: Trying something new. Something new have to happen at this point. Since I cannot administer the thought of what I actually have to spend, withdrawing the money I have for food weekly seems like the only way forward. Actually having my “food-money” in the hands makes it so real. Several times on my way home after a long day at my internship I’ve had to remind myself that I cannot afford ice-cream on a daily basis if I shall be able to afford eating the rest of the week. It’s amazing what actual money in my wallet has done to my reality sense. But many things is yet to happen. I will get back to you on this.
On the other hand, I was reminded what all of this was really about last sunday. Because while juggling food-money and my intense desire for Ben&Jerry’s Dairyfree ice-cream (unreachable… I have to go to the US to even buy it), someone said to me on tithing:
It’s not a money thing, it’s a God thing.
And that’s in the end what I wanted out of this years experiment: Letting my eyes fixating on God instead of getting lost in the desires money can foster.